~thinking~

Ambiguous fragmentation

Sunrise
You wake up one morning
Filled with love and passion
Rain
You went to the waiting shed
To wait and watch the raindrops slowly falling
Wait
You are waiting patiently
Living your life cautiously
Wind
And then a gush of wind
A flicker of light; then vanished and then conquered
Lightning
Thunderbolt and flashing fearing
You saw your world destruct
But you hold your ground still and waited
Fate
A twist of fate perchance;
Or just some dumb bad luck
Silence
A week or so of deafening silence
You were in a rut and crumbling to shambles
But still you waited
Time
You ask for more time but you were not given
And slowly everything carefully and deliberately vanished
Hope
You still hope for some time and more moments
But then after a while hope too was taken leaving you with nothing
Wait
For months you have been waiting
Nay, it seems like it was forever
But still you waited
And waited…
And waited some more…
Leave
Is it time for you to leave?
Are you going now and never once weep?
Questions
More questions eternally askShould I still wait and pray you’ll be stray or should I go now when I still have my head to spare?

i love surveys...except this one..wonder why? hmmm...

1.YOUR HOROSCOPE?

sign? capricorn



2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?

.: single..unfortunately



3. iN LOVE?

.: possibly..



4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY

HURT

BY A PERSON YOU LOVE?

.: yeah..sobra nga eh..



5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF

YOU

TURNED SUiCiDAL?

.: nah..tama na ung mga ganyan..



6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG

YOURSELF?

.: yeah..not just physically...pti nga emotionally eh



7. COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?

.: classic.. :)



8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR

SMART/UGLY?

.: smart and ugly nalang noh..hehehe..;p



9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE

RELATiONSHiP WiTH

YOUR BF/GF?

.: sorry not in a relationship right now



10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE

USUALLY FROM:

.: people..of course dba..ang scary pag ndi tao nagtxt sau..imagine mo nlng aso
ngtxt sau dba scary?



11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN

THE

OPPOSiTE GENDER?

.: hmmmm...you can call him like that na rin



12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN

YOU`RE

DEPRESSED?

.: lie on my bed and think



13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?

.: cheerful..pro ewan ko minsan cguro boring..hehehe..;p



14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE?

.: nothing compares to simply being with that special someone



15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY

KNOWS

WHY THE SKY iS BLUE?

.: no..because i know why it is BLUE..hehehe..;p



16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?

.: yes..



17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME

MiSTAKE AGAiN? WITH LOVE???

.: i probably would..i never really learn...sad..pro ok lng..



18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE

HELL???

.: lately..ewan ko..sobrang bitter ko kasi eh



19. WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN A

PERSON

BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE

DAY?

.: wla..eh ano ba un? sus eh one day lng pla eh..hehehe..;p



20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST

DESCRiBES

WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW?

.: weird..;p



21.DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?

.: most of the times i do



22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT

YOURSELF??

.: yes...



23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELf?

.: yes...



24. MOTTO iN LiFE?

.: go on living, laughing, loving



25. WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE?

.: find my real purpose..;p



26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD FEELiNGS

ABOUT A

FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE

GENDER?

.: probably...



27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO?

.: secret...;p



28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST

iMPORTANT

THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?

.: no way..never was probably never will



29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS

OR

SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?

.: i have no way of finding out..i'm asleep dba..;p



30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?

.: yup! hehehehe..;p



31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?

.: haaay nku lately 5 hrs lng..asar nga eh..i love sleeping pa naman

whole new everything

its weird
why do i get to feel this way
why does everything have to happen this way
why is it that i still can't move on
but hey
i have a whole new plan
this is a whole new everything
its the chinese new year after all what better way to start again
so here i am
starting over
from scratch
but at least i am trying
i just hope that this time around this will work