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"THE ONLY WAY TO MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION IS TO KNOW WHAT THE WRONG DECISION IS"
-Petrus
Paulo Coelho's The Pilgrimage

Loneliness.

Do you ever feel lonely?
A question that was simply put and carelessly asked which surprisingly got me off balanced. It was one of those rather plain and obviously rhetorical queries that I really do not have to answer. But when it was posed to me I was surprised that I was not able to answer immediately as was my wont when I am asked with questions such as that. It took me some minutes of reflection before I can actually answer the question with at least some sort of conviction. I was even ashamed of my answer. I realized that every one of us is lonely and that those who say otherwise are lying. Because no matter how satisfied or contented we might have thought ourselves to be, there would always be something missing deep inside. We know in our hearts that we long for something more. Even when we countered by saying that we have our friends, our family, our achievements or even our work to fill the gaps, when we really sit down and think about it, we would know that we are only fooling ourselves. We are all just trying to deny the fact that we are lonely. And whether we accept it or not, we are all liars, saying that we are these or that when we really are otherwise. As discouraging and as bleak our situation seems to be I do not believe that we are beyond hope. On the contrary I rather believe that there is hope but the first step to take in order for that hope to be visible and within reaching range, is our acceptance of the truth that we are indeed lonely.

first day.secondsem.third year

today's the first day of second semester
and after attending 3 of my classes today
all I can say is
WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO???

this sem will definitely be very
as in VERY VERY VERY
hectic

goodluck to me
haaaayyy...

short.

after:

riding a dolphin and a fake killer whale
swimming in a 40-60 ft deep water
having fallen off a kayak
getting bitten by small fishes
spending almost every penny
watching a thousand tv series episodes
having taken a million photos
getting all the sleep i need AND WANT
eating all the junkfood i can stuff in my oversized belly
stretching my vocal chords to its limit
having tried and failed to play the piano
practicing till i was hoarse
watching volleyball almost everyday
having cut my hair short

my sembreak ended abruptly.