~deep~

when people leave you
you cry dont you?
its actually the only way to ease the pain you're feeling
right?
you cry because you are at a lost as to what to do
you cry because its the only thing that can keep you from thinking
you cry because you have to
you cry therefore you ARE WEAK

i don't like being left behind
its one of the worst feeling in the world
imagine being left alone to handle all the pain
to handle everything else
imagine pretending to STRONG when deep inside you're really WEAK

I DON'T LIKE BEING LEFT BEHIND

perhaps that's the reason i never get to fully trust anybody
there would always be something i keep to myself no matter how close we are
i would always be secretive about something

ihadalwaysbeenthatway

because

when you give your full trust to somebody
you give yourself wholly
you risk yourself
you risk getting hurt
you risk getting LEFT BEHIND
you have to cry
you have to be WEAK

i guess now you can say
I HATE TAKING RISKS AS WELL
coz its a chain reaction
one thing leads to another



there something
that i revealed about myself again

breaking that mysterious facade
making a hole in my wall

*discover me