wrong again...

i seem to have done something wrong again...
why is it ALWAYS like that?
its like no matter what i do, it would ALWAYS and I REPEAT ALWAYS be wrong to you...
and right now i just don't understand you
i don't get you at all...
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perhaps i was asking too much
perhaps i was choosing the wrong decision
perhaps i was chasing a different idea
perhaps i was imagining way too much
or perhaps i am just wrong
wrong to assume that you understand me enough to know that this isn't easy...

am i really THAT wrong?
just please...prove to me im not...please
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haayyyy
ang weird ng entry noh?
xnxa na...
juz kinda feeling a little and let me reiterate that A LITTLE disappointed
with myself and well with the actions of the people around me and again i would like to reiterate the word 'PEOPLE' juz so you guys wouldn't get the wrong idea...
right now i am not entirely sure of what i am truly feeling
sobra mixed emotions tlga
kahapon pa ito...
haayyyyy
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nga pla debut celebration ni danna kagabi...
and ndi ako nakapunta dhl sa napakawalang kwenta na rason at naiinis tlga ako...
nahihiya ako sa kanya sobra kc umattend xa nung debut ko tpos ngpromis pa man din ako na pupunta ako
haayyyy...pagkagising ko pa nga nung morning na un nakasimangot na ko tpos nagpunta pa ako sa barangay nila bes pra ihatid ang dress ko na hinihiram ng friend ko for the debut turns out ndi na pupunta un friend ko na un..so in short nasayang ang punta kila bes, nasira ko ang schedule ni bes,mjo pissed off xa skn at ndi pa rin ako makakapunta sa debut ni danna then mga 12 na ko dumating sa house kc ang tagal ko inantay c bes un pla inantay ako ni bes sa bhy nila at ndi sa meeting place nmn..late ako sa aming lakad ng family at well napagalitan ng onti..sbrang bad day yesterday but my onting good thing na nangyari...saw mrs.vital at gnun pa din ang itsura nya...tpos kita ko si "Ate Tin" sa NorthEdsa, at chismax ito meron xang dalang flowers...hehehe...parang big deal eh noh, normal lng un kc maganda xa at malamang may magbibigay ng flowers dun noh..oh by the way gnun pa din ang itsura nya..payat pa din, sobrang feminine at makulit pa din in short "ate tin" pa din ang dating...so un and saturday ko...
and ngaung sunday
BORING
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*note to self
STOP! wag ka na mag-assume masama yan

wla lng...

"COGNITO ERGO SUM"
I Think therefore I AM
-Rene Descartes
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i just have a lot on my mind
a lot of questions and no answers
regarding life, love, happiness, and......GOD
yup
AGAIN

I don't exactly know the reason behind my sudden relapse to that questioning self again...must be the philosophical discussions in history class...oh well...must FIND answers...MUST FIND FACTUAL and REASONABLE answers

anyway

since i am back in school
i happen to observe a lot of UNIMPORTANT things

*the manny pangilinan building is nearing its completion
*cotton can be found littering the walkways behind Faura and near the Meron pond
*most people in Ateneo are sporting tanned skins
*girls can be mean soccer players
*professors like to rush things especially during summer classes
*majority of CUTE guys here are GAY..;( sadness...
*bio people are serious when it comes to their studies


there...


hmmmnnn...wanna share something
seriously considering changing course
SERIOUSLY

WRITTEN IN THE STARS

i happen to read my friend's blog and guess what i found
yeap..that song..written in the stars..courtesy of AIDA..
AIDA
the broadway show that captured my heart, the production that was unexpectedly etched in my mind,the play i would never forget
perhaps because of a lot of reasons but that play was definitely one of the best i have ever watched
can you believe i watched that 3 times?
yes i bought 3 tickets worth 150php which at that time was a lot of money since i am only a 2nd year non-earning highschool student
haaayyy...how i loved it
now back to that song
i love that song
i especially liked that song because of its lyrics
during the times when i was "depressed" i remember that song and realized i can actually relate to it and i was surprised when my friend posted this in her blog
i guess she is suffering the same thing i went through before
i really don't know the details
so anyway...
here's the song

Aida:I am here to tell you we can never meet again
Simple really, isn't it, a word or two and then
A lifetime of not knowing where or how or why or when
You think of me, or speak of me, or wonder what befell
The someone you once loved so long ago, so well

Radames:Never wonder what I'll feel as living shuffles by
You don't have to ask me and I need not reply
Every moment of my life from now until I die
I will think and dream of you but fail to understand
How a perfect love can be confounded out of hand

Both:Is it written in the stars
Are we paying for some crime
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time
Is this God's experiment
In which we have no say
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

Aida:Nothing can be altered, oh, there is nothing to decide
No escape, no change of heart, no any place to hide

Radames:You are all I'll ever want but this I am denied
Sometimes in my darkest thoughts I wish I never learned

Both:What it is to be in love and have that love returned
Is it written in the stars
Are we paying for some crime
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time
Is this God's experiment {God's experiment}
In which we have no say {In which we have now say}
In which we're given paradise {If only for a day}
But only for a day
{Is it written in the stars}
{Are we paying for some crime}
{Is that all that we are good for}
{Just a stretch of mortal time}
Is this God's experiment {God's experiment}
In which we have no say {In which we have now say}
In which we're given paradise {If only for a day}
But only for a day

~silent~

SILENCE
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sometimes people remain silent not because they want to but because they have to
sometimes they choose to remain silent to avoid further inquiry, and stall for time
it is not to be viewed as cowardice nor as indifference
rather it has to be viewed as an objectification

sometimes silence was all they have
sometimes it was the only way they can go on
and sometimes it was the only way they know to help them construct their opinions
thus saying so their silence must not be taken as answers to questions and issues directed to them
it has to be understood that their silence is merely an intervention and sooner or later the answers will come and their option to remain silent will then be aborted

i acknowledge that silence can be misinterpreted and can be the caused of a lot of misunderstandings but somehow i just know that when it comes to delicate issues the right thing to do is to remain silent

silence for me is a virtue
it hides the emotions
it veils the truth
it launches double meanings

apology

friendship=
is undeniably an important part of everybody's life

friend=
is someone who is always there, someone you connect with, someone you share things with and a lot of other things

for the most part of my life i am proud to say i know a lot of people who i can consider my friends but special mention goes out to those i consider my true friends
those people who i am sure will be there for life

i have done much thinking regarding this matter and i absolutely regret that i haven't paid much attention to these people i call my friends
i have been busy lately and yes i haven't hang out with a lot of them
i haven't even talk to quite a lot of them
though it may have appear that i have forgotten a lot of important dates and events be rest assured that i have not forgotten any of it at all
i may not have been there to celebrate it with you guys but i really have not forgotten
so to my beloved friends
I LOVE YOU ALL!!! and
belated happy birthday to mel!
congratulations to fay!
and
i'll always be here for you rein!
to the rest of the kada
I MISS YOU GUYS!
[k53]forever!

im back

been quite awhile since my last post...
been busy...
travelling here and there...
tried to go to as many places as I can squeeze in my 2 weeks vacation...
*hongkong was fun => ultimate gift!
*tagaytay was hot => and i mean that literally, so weird noh TAGAYTAY HOT???
*laguna was as usual boring => but saw someone from the far flung long forgotten past..ahehehe
*METROMANILA MALLS => my salvation!

obvious ba walang swimming ngaun...haayyy
summer classes kc...nobody's fault but mine though
kelan kaya ako makakapagswimming? pero for this past few days feeling ko ayw ko na magswimming ang itim ko na kc..pro lam nyo ba na i am getting a tan kahit na ndi pa ako nakakalapit sa kahit isang pool o beach..e lumakad ka lang around school mangingitim ka na eh...badtrip!
ohwell..
nonsense blabbing again..
what can i say
my life is too complicated to write in a single blog post

ill update soon

heartbroken?

says who???
not me...
hehehe...
im finally happy..
really really REALLY happy..
there are a lot of reasons to smile
and laugh
and just be plainly happy...=)
for the past weeks i have been trying to reach out to a certain someone
and maybe mend the rift between us but well ayaw niya eh ndi nga nagrereply eh
so sayang talaga
pro i learned ok na siya
masaya na daw siya
masayang masaya nga daw eh with a NEW someone..at take note 3 letter name again..ndi naman siya mahilig sa mga 3 letter named na people noh..
so anyway
i guess ok na rin ako
basta
FOR YOU: I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST! GOODLUCK ON EVERYTHING! I MISS THE FRIENDSHIP..i really do..hope we can go back to where we were before..before everything started and ended..i have a lot of regrets but i would never regret what had happened between us and i hope you do too...haaayyyy

anyway
the reason why i was happy
S-E-C-R-E-T
hehehe
basta ito nalang
i woke up today and realized i missed you
it was weird at first but i gradually accepted the reality that i really do miss you
and for the past week that we haven't talked or texted each other i can't stop thinking of you
and damn!
i was surprised when i receive a text from you
it was nothing just an invitation but i was sooooooo happy to hear from you
but then i have no load so i wasn't able to reply
but just like that
YOU made everything right again
YOU made a boring day completely bright
THANK YOU and I MISS YOU
im looking forward....sa lahat...sa new possibilities...hehehehe
ill see you soon

*guess nalang kung sino ung YOU*
hehehe
=)

and