reading...

12:00 midnight

i was reading past blog posts of some friends of mine
and I kinda miss those days
I miss reading blogs that were updated almost everyday
and reading entries that you can relate to

i guess I just miss my friends
i miss how my life was
i miss how things were

i wish i could go back

but i can't

because like everybody else
I have to Grow Up


I wish Peter Pan would visit me
I won't hesitate to come with him..


"PETER PAN!!! MY WINDOW'S OPEN YOU CAN COME IN ANYTIME,
FEEL FREE TO LEAVE YOUR SHADOW BEHIND,
I CAN MEND YOU, JUST PROMISE TO TAKE ME TO NEVERLAND.



hahaha
crazy
e2 ang epekto ng wala pang tulog
for 2 weeks straight

dahil ndi pa ako tulog..

1.anong ayos ng buhok mo ngayon?~ nakalugay
2. kumusta na ang puso mo?~ halos buo na..beh!
3. may iniisip ka ba ngayon?~ meron Stat proj
4. madali ka bang magalit?~ ndi naman
6. kelan ka huling nakakita ng unggoy?~ knina lang sa harap ng salamin..hahaha! w8 bt wlang 5?
7. kelan ka huling uminom ng tahokasama tatay mo!?~ nung sunday
8. anong huli mong ininom?~ TUBIG
9. my crush k b ngayun????~ oo..lagi nmn ako may crush eh
10. single? taken? o reserved?~ uhhh..reserved??? ;p
11. kelan ka huling tumawa?~ kanina lang
12. madali ka bang maimpluwensyahan?~ paminsan
13. e may lakad ka ba mamaya?~ oo
14. may pinoproblema ka ba ngayon?~ OO! STAT PROJ!
15. anong pinakagusto mong nabililast week?~ Huh?
17. mahilig ka bang tumakbo~ oo..namimiss ko na ngang mag-50 m dash eh
18. anong huli mong napanood sa tv~ Jumong..hahaha..baduy ko noh
19. halata ba pag may problema ka?~ ewan ko
20. madali ka bang magpatawad?~ ndi
21. malikot ka ba?~ SOOOBRA! :p
22. anong mas gusto mo? single nalike mo plang o taken na mahal mo na?~ SINGLE NALIKE KO PLANG tama na ang mga forbidden relationships..hahaha..nakakasawa magtago..bagong buhay na to mehn!
23. may crush ka ba ngayon?~ oo nga kuhlet ha!
24. ilan ang sim mo?~ 2. GLOBE AND SMART
25. sino madalas mong katext?~ wla dahil ndi ako madalas magtext
26. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon~ wla
28. san ka makikita this sunday?~ sa debut ni jen..teka bt wla dng 27?
29. may curfew ka ba?~ oo
30. anong pinagkakaabalahan mongayon?~ STAT PROJ!!!
31. sa palagay mo cno sunod nasasagot sa survey na to?~ wala
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thank goodness...

slept at around 1am
woke up at 630am
took history exam from 9-1030
took another exam from 12-430
and took another exam from 630-10

its a wonder I can still type my thoughts here without
fainting from exhaustion
and though i won't be getting an A in history
im still happy
i survived another hellweek

a girl can dream..

everybody is entitled to dream
and i believe i am no exception
so this is for the hearts that ache
and the wishes that have been kept for so long

really wonderful song..

gee i wonder why i am in such an emo mode lately

A gIrL cAn DrEaM
by nina

When i was a child, the story would say
somebody will sweep you off your feet some day
that's what i hoped would happen with you
more than you could know
I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands
i prayed for the day that i would get the chance
just when i worked up the courage to try
much to my surprise

Refrain :
you had somebody else, yeah '
cause these feelings i keep to myself

Chorus
i may never get to hold you so tight
i may never get to kiss you goodnight
i may never get to look deep in your eyes
or so it seems
I always will be wishin' you were mine
i'll think about what could be all the time
all the happiness that i could find
baby, a girl can dream
From the moment i wake up till i fall asleep
i imagine you're not with her but with me
talkin' and laughin', sharin' our dreams but it's just a fantasy

Bridge
a girl can dream,
it's true and to call you my own
it's the sweetest dream i know

oh man!

im so bad..
free loader..
crap..
argh..

feeling tired..

QMT LT 2?
forget the propriety and let me just say some obscenity
FUCK!

eto lang masasabi ko
non-stop studying can be bad for you

pagod na tlga ko

let me sleep...
i want to sleep..
sleep..
sleep..
sleep..

please...

~losing battle~

"the greatest battle ever fought by anyone is the battle of love that can never be...

No matter how strong your shield or how sharp your sword is, the bleeding cannot
be prevented and the hurt will never be concealed...

For the would of the body can be healed but the wound of the heart will forever
leave a scar that will remind you of a battle never won..."

nagpaparelax...

i have an accounting exam in 15 mins
and super ang nerves ko kaya naisip ko nalang magblog
para marelax kahit papano
Kanina I had class with Dr. Ibarra as my teacher
and take note
7 lang kami sa class kc ang mababait naming classmate ndi pumasok
at sbi nya move forward daw and rather unfortunately
wla gusto tumabi sakin kaya aun i was seated in front
man i was so nervous the entire time but I must say she
really is a good teacher, that woman knows her stuff
may reputation lang talaga xa kaya siguro sbi nla nakakatakot
pero she was funny knina ha..hehehe

grabe ang dami ko gusto iblog
dami ako kwento
nahawa ako kay sir j*mamil..hahaha
speaking of sir
kanina nagkwento xa about his life
ang sad ng kanyang love story
na-sad ako for him
pro natuwa ako dahil ibig sabihin single xa
hahaha..lovely!
25 lang naman xa may pag-asa pa ako..hahaha
ui secret lang natin 'to ha..crush ko tlga si sir
pro lam ko ndi lang ako ang nagkakacrush sa kanya
ang dami sa mga classmates ko pati sa kabilang section
pano ko alam? xmpre sbi nga nla "know ur enemies"
hahaha..inaalam ko mga karibal ko..
pag nakita nyo si sir magegetz nyo bakit dmi nagkakacrush sa kanya
bsta just ignore the "weird" ear, complete package na xa
i mean hello?! matalino( cum laude lang nmn), well-off (may sariling business)
may confidence( un nga lang minsan sobra), nice body (nagwowork out DAW xa)
cute smile (as in!), may sense of humor (kahit mjo weird), at higit sa lahat
may prinsipyo at values (sobra ang ganda ng ideas nya)
o diba? CRUSHABLE tlga

kanina din pla we discussed something in history
have you heard of "WEAPONS OF THE WEAK" ?
if ever ndi pa ang ibig sabihin lang nun
PASSIVE RESISTANCE
si sir L*zada
nagkwento about his own version daw ng pag-apply ng passive resistance
tas habang nagkukwento xa naalala ko ung aking version din ng pag-apply ng passive resistance
hahaha..halos kc magkapareho..ung kwento nya nangyari nung HS days nya tas ang result
tinithreaten daw sila as in buong batch na masuspend pag walang umamin..hahaha..sounds familiar noh???
hahaha..naalala ko ung pangyayari nung Gr.6 ako...muntik na din kami masuspend, as in buong section
ng 6-Magnolia pano ba naman ang sasalbahe namin..kc ayaw nmin dti sa teacher nmn sa Filipino pnu ang tanda na
nga can't relate pa sa amin tas boring at ang taray-taray..kaya naman "nagrebelde" kmi..pag nakatalikod xa
kung ano-ano pinaggagagawa namin(eg. nagbabatuhan ng eraser, nageexercise, nagfaflash ng kung ano-ano) pero
pagharap nya mabait na ulit kami..pero ang nagpahamak sa amin ay ang brilliant idea ni K*t*at(ang maglaro ng mirror)
how does that work? simple lang pagnakatalikod si ma'am ilalabas ang mirror, usually dalawa tas itapat sa araw at
malamang magrereflect un so itatapat sa board, at habang nagsusulat si ma'am parang naghahabulan ang dalawang reflection
at usually with the intention na masilaw si ma'am..hahaha..eventually nahuli kme..nagpunta si "legendary" Ms.S*lin*p
at kinausap kmi at sinasbi na "HINDI KAYO MAKAKAGRADUATE, PWEDE KAYO MASUSPEND".
Kami naman naniwala, at nagsiiyakan, hahaha...mga bata nga nman..ang gullible at madaling matakot pro dhl dun mas
naging close ang section nmn, nagkaroon pa nga kmi ng sariling nostalgia at sa end ng school year meron kaming
parang "goodbye-iyakan" session with matching candles and souvenir na white handkerchief..ang weird..hahaha..pro
nasa akin pa din un candle at ung handkerchief..

grabe ang dami ko na nakwento ang haba ng entry ko na ito and to think mag-eexam na ako in a few minutes...ai w8 gusto lang ishare na naka-D ako sa first ever long test ko sa stat at naka 92 nmn ako sa midterms ko sa histo..not bad noh..hehe..wish me luck sa accounting..ciao!

hello nga pla kay cheenee! dahil nag-comment xa sa aking previous entry ng "HI LIZ" sinasagot ko lang

random thoughts..

I spent half my day in school
had class
went to the lib
met a friend
got eaten by a dozen or so mosquitos
got caught in traffic
stumbled on my way inside the house
and missed my favorite show

gee what a saturday

~apologize~

is a simple sorry enough?



or would a single gesture be able to make you smile?


i don't think that,
given a wrong moment
or a bad situation,
you can make things right
or even set things back at their right places

but at least I feel something
I can still say I am human
I feel raw emotions