killing the suspense rather than be killed by the suspense

I am lucky...
still lucky
so I'll count my blessings
rather than lie in bed thinking of the past I cannot change
or the future I have no control of
today
I'll live the present
moment by moment
minute by minute
second by second
refreshing the page
breathing in and out
praying
and
hoping
and hoping
and hoping
and hoping
and hoping
and hoping
until the final die is cast
and the final grade is seen
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optimism is the key
and prayer is the answer