~good evening~

_<_>_ g'dnyt

let me freeze this
uhhhhh...
=)

could a simple flutter of the heart mean so much?

i know the answer must lie somewhere

perhaps...?

one way or another
i can still say i am content
this was all we've really ever been
and this is the way we are now
and
perhaps
nothing will change
no matter how much i want it to
i can never really understand why it had to be that way
but as always
i succumbed to the situation
and here i am writing
all my ramblings
i would never have the courage to tell you
what really goes on in my mind
nor do i think
you possessed the necessary courage as well
our friends may see and know what we have both been trying hard to deny
and yet do nothing
it has always been between you and me
nobody else
so here we are
and as always stuck at the crossroads
with nowhere else to go
but instead of moving forward or even backwards
we both stayed
right here
where everything is balance, safe and organized
just very GOOD friends..
that can go on to nothing but a
PERHAPS...
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oohhh dramatic!
hahaha
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but not mine though..
hehehe

~inferiority~

while sitting in a class and listening to the teacher lecture
I blurted out an answer to her question like i so often did in many of my other classes
and my seatmate apparently gauging that my answer was right
urged me to recite
of course
like always
i stayed mum and remain seated
she then reprimanded me and kept on asking me why i did what i did
and as always
i replied with a simple statement
"ayoko, nahihiya ako"

how many chances have i missed just because i was shy? or afraid that i would say the wrong answer?
probably too many to mention
how many times have i chastised myself for not rising up to the challenge?
probably too many times it is even impossible to comprehend
how many times have i told myself over and over again to do what i have to do?
probably too many i wont even finish by nightfall
and how many grades have i let fall just because i was hesitant to speak?
probably too many you won't even believe what i wrote

here i go
reproaching other people
chastising their attitudes
when i myself can't get over
my own insecurities
or better disguised in the word
shyness

IRONIC isn't it?

ONE BIG SHOUTOUT

I would like to take this opportunity to thank the people who took the time to help us with our psychomercial project

A HUGE THANK YOU TO:

BODI YUHICO

and

LUTZ RELUCIO

and

to the kids
Aljee and jillian

=)

~festa bossa nova~

who would forget....

hi! what will you have? hello! what do you want? what do you have here? uhm we have coke, cokelight, sprite, royal and water, water? big or small? ui one big water daw, here you go, that would be 20 php, cheenee isang coke nga, shet! ang lamig sa kamay! argghhh! my hands are freezing! ui pagnagkafrostbite ako bayaran nyo ko ha, jen have you list that down? oo nga eh dont make me gulo, wla na naguguluhan na ko, cno may change? ui wla na tau coins, ei may utang kau sa akin ha, cla dino kumuha na naman, ilan un? sandamakmak na water daw for the artists, zitti wants straw,hala why dont we have light kc dito sa likod? let there be light, yey! may ilaw na, consumable daw ba ung ticket? huh? free coke? cnong nagsabi may ganun, joke naman yan eh, capoiera people kanina pa ngpapractice, did you see that? nagtumbling xa palikod, omg! parang may spring ang mga paa nila, ang galing!, im hungry na, ui guys bunot daw kau, yey! mcburger, ang dami pang flowers sayang atin nlng un...

and the unlimited favorito ice-cream for the guests, the freebies for the artists, the self-proclaimed freebies ng staff and the latin background music not to mention the stressful job of selling..hehehe

i certainly won't
=)

before i go and ruined it all...

yeah before i submerged myself in accounting blues
i'd like to take a few minutes to write here and de-stress
man! im so tired...
2 LTs and 1 quiz, all in one day and no breaks in between
o dba kaya nyo un
and eto pa
they all require critical thinking and lots and lots of stored knowledge
i haven't slept at all
i spent the day reading
reading what?
eh di syempre ung 3-in worth of required readings for SA and ung weird na mga tula for Fil14
pero my fault
hilig ko kasi mag-cram yan tuloy ako nahihirapan
haaaayyyyy...
and hell week's still not over
actually its HELL SEMESTER
grabe yoko na
its a wonder i can still smile and joke around
waaaahhhh
............
this is the first time im ever going to request this
please i hope it rains, kahit bukas lang para mapostpone ang accounting
pagod na pagod na tlga ko
=(

~miracles~

Miracles happen once in a while when you BELIEVE
-princess diaries

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sometimes I find myself very elated
even when I am burdened with so much things to do
because every once in a while
things unexpectedly happen
and these things
are miracles in themselves
I know then that God MUST really exist

GRAND csr HOMECOMING

ok i know this is kind of funny
pero i think this will be fun so im going to promote it

yes there will be a grand homecoming or whatever
silver jubilee ng batch '82 or something else
i don't really know the details
so anyway if you want to be a part of the committee handling the activities please feel free to join
text niyo numbers na 'to coz they have been flooding my inbox texting me and asking me to forward their numbers to anyone i know kaya eto ipinagkakalat ko nah

CARMELA TABANERA - 09154413042
PHOEBE ANN DELA ROSA - 09266272456

there's going to be a meeting din daw on Sept30, saturday morning
un text niyo nlng sila or punta nlng kau dun

yan cge my job is done
hehehe
punta kau ha
hahaha!

~vieux moulin~

how revealing it was to examine photographs after a long time has passed.
how different we look, in reality, than we remember ourselves looking then, years ago.
-DANGEROUS TO KNOW

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isn't it funny
how a single message can make your world spin again in circles
how a simple nod can make you quiver
how a firm handshake can make you have goosebumps
how a mere hug can make you shiver
how a swift smile can make your legs feel like jelly
how a familiar pair of eyes can make you go back in time and remember

sometimes fate can really surprise us
quite unexpectedly things happen and we find ourselves caught off guard
many a times we find ourselves victims of fate's treachery

and yes
in one saturday

FATE made me REMEMBER...

~Satirika~

in one word
HEAVY


Watch it
truly worth your 150 php

~social construct~

TODAY in SA 21 i learned about:

Social Construction of reality
-there is no such thing as a reality that exist before a social interaction;
reality is created by people interacting with one another;
our concept of reality is really nothing but a social construct we made up to
assign definitive limits to ourselves in order to maintain the specific
arrangements we have also made

Goffman's theory
-that people view their lives as a stage performance where the world is the
stage and the people around them the audience;
it is by this theory that we can explain the dual personalities people seem
to have and can justify the concept of lying or pretending


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if you got A's or B's in almost all your minors
but got C's or D's or worse F's in your majors
what does that tell you?
you don't need to be a genius in order to figure that out
you just have to have the heart to accept the reality of it

i know
damn it
ROLE STRAIN AND ROLE CONFLICT
activating
arghh

=(..

~race~

standing in line
crouching next
and readying up for start
then you hear the gunshot
that is your cue
there's only a split second to decide
one wrong move and you're going to be left behind
right foot push forward
left foot spring into action
your body automatically propel forward
at that moment's exhilaration
you feel the adrenaline rush
and then you ran
you ran as fast as you can
the cool wind biting your face
hurting your eyes
detaining your movements
but still you ran
nobody can stop you now
the feel of surpassing everyone
of breaking free
and finally being able to do your own thing
in your own time
in your own pace
then just as fast as it has started
everything ended in an instant
the yells of the crowd
distant uproar of clapping
and the feel of that yellow ribbon in your waist
you look around
you're at the finish line
funny
you don't feel happy
or fulfilled
instead you feel

like you didn't win the race...

~stay alive~

horror/thriller/suspense flicks
never seem to catch my attention
close friends knew I hated watching them
not because I got scared or scream my lungs out everytime I watched them
its just that I don't find any sense in watching a movie that was suppose to scare you with super paranoid lead characters and super "panget" monsters and zombies
i mean what's the point of watching something when all it makes you do is scream and stay up late at night trying to block out scenes from the movie in your mind
but I go and watch them anyway
but only because my friends wanted to watch them
and a lot of people knew im no fun to be with whenever horror movies are concern
because instead of screaming or jumping in my seat
i would be LAUGHING my heart out
i know it can be rude especially in a moviehouse
but sometimes i just can't stop myself
i see people screaming in terror
cuddling close to each other
feet up in the air
or heads under their seats
and eyes almost popping out of their sockets
the cause of all that?
nothing but an illusory monster/zombie/spirit/dead hand/VIDEO GAME!!! etc.
who wouldn't find them funny?
anyway
yesterday i watched STAY ALIVE with my orgmates
it was definitely a different experience
first time kc to go out with them
but it was super fun
even if i wasn't feeling well and i was a little disappointed kc we watched Stay Alive instead of Devil wears Prada
I was able to get to know them better and got more insights about their personalities
It was funny because we all think that the movie was crap
but we enjoyed it anyway
kc we were all laughing after the movie ended
coz the story was so typical
the plot has many loopholes
the characters weren't so defined
but the movie was star studded
hahaha
weird
kc we were all wondering why the actors accepted the movie when it was so 2-star rating
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here's a few memorable lines uttered throughout the movie that made us laugh

Swink Sylvania: Bitch, that's cheating! I'm not even dead yet!

October Bantum: Go fuck yourself!

Phineus Bantum: Wassup Mama?

Abigail : He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not...

and here's a few lines we've heard from the people seated behind us

Line#1:
P*tcha!!! umalis ka dyan papatayin ka nyan! (blurted out when everybody was quiet)

Line#2:
Ano ka ba kakamatay lang ng girlfriend mo hinahalikan mo na iba?! (with feelings)

Line#3:
May part 2 yan! may part 2 yan! (screaming excitedly)

Line#4:
hala mamatay ka na nga eh pa-he loves me he loves me not ka pa dyan!

Line#5:
T*nga! bat ka pumunta dyan, nandyan na sya!!! (with feelings ulit)

Line#6:
Bilis!!! ung rose ung rose, bigyan mo xa ng rose! (again with feelings)


so you can just imagine my utter disbelief in those people but thankfully they were there at least i have something to laugh about
grabe they were so affected by the movie, i just can't help but laugh at them
ang babaw nila eh
so there
as most people was busy alleviating their terror
i busied myself watching their reactions
and finding loopholes in the film
and as usual i focused my attention to unnecessary details
as they were all flipping out all i can see are the actors and actresses body and clothes and how they carry themselves
how thin or fat they were
how corny they looked
etc.
anyway im gonna end this blog with
this line that i said that made cheeNe* laughed so hard she couldn't stop laughing and which she afterwards shared with everyone that got everyone so cracked up din

"CHe*nee did you see that? tama ka nga, she's anorexic talaga" (nudging her excitedly)
she fixated me with a look that says what are you talking about
i finished my sentence with this line
"ndi mo ba nakita ung rib cage niya? shet its bulging out, grabe ang payat niya tlga"


p.s
i just finished watching the trailer of the movie
and all i can say is that
it is definitely better than the movie itself