?!FSDEW#$%^&*()!!!!!!

i had lost the battle










eh kahit nmn anong sbihin ko ndi ka na maniniwala
im a goddamn consummate liar diba?
lahat nmn ng tao ngaun ganyan na tingin sakin
cge sirain mo na lahat ng view sakin ng lahat ng tao
para pagngumiti ako ndi na nila papansinin
at pag umiyak ako wla na ring papansin
magiging invisible nalang din ako

just remember that YOU also made me cry
and while I shed buckets of tears for him
I never let him see them
but I had CRIED IN FRONT OF YOU
and those tears were real
at least believe that "measly" thing
even if its the only thing you would ever believe
from me

amazingly exasperated.

what's up with the use of the word
love?

between the two of
us that word shouldn't come up







at least not anymore



but then again
it doesn't matter

dangerously dominating.

Am I becoming soft now?

I used to believe that I can hide my emotions very well or at least be able to successfully convince others that what I had shown them was what I was really feeling.

But lately I think I’m losing that particular “skill”.

My eyes can turn into jealous daggers or teary water pipes and I am helpless to stop them from being that way.

My lips can twitch into a crazy smile or thin into a straight line and I find myself powerless to control them.

My eyebrows can move into a frown or rise in surprise and I find myself unable to maneuver them the way I used to.

And all because of churlish attitudes dominating my horribly twisted life.

darn!

enchanting.

I saw this poem in the web and saw that it was
written by my Philo prof sir Anton
man! was I surprised. He can definitely write. No wonder
he keeps on talking about poems and some writer stuffs
I loved this poem because it was so simple and yet
manages to be so symbolic. It doesn't have perfect measures
but it has a rhythm. And the meaning was so clear that
you can immediately relate to it.
I wish I can write like that.
No...
I wish I can write better than that..
hehe
=)

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Sovereign (01/28/01)
By Anton Luis C. Sevilla

The sky shakes off the Sun's last rays,
and indigo creeps down the horizon.
Dead stars begin to reach and blaze
and mint dew bathes the dank air of autumn.

She calls me with soft and halted breath
that trickles in like mist upon the leaves.
With every sharp exhale a pending death
alights upon my wandering soul and grieves.

Do you leave me now?
Do you leave me here?

And I squint ‘til the sapphire sky
blurs into a grit barbaric gray.
And mercury drips from a broken bulb,
never again to tell the warmth of day.

[pauli]

*PoP!*

I should have waited.
Maybe then I wouldn't have been too disillusioned.
-by W.B.Y

on likeness,orbits and some sort of asymptotic line.

Likeness is an effect of close proximity and constant togetherness
thus if they are always together they would tend to share the same experiences
and eventually have some common interests.
They would be alike in many ways.
But according to science like poles repels each other
so you dare to say that "like repels like".

MY TAKE ON THIS:
The keyword here my dear friend is LIKENESS. Likeness only means that
you have some resemblance, it certainly doesn't mean that you are an exact
duplicate of each other. So though you may initially "repel" each other it
doesn't mean that you can't "attract" each other. Remember that each person
is unique, we all have differences no matter how similar we might seem to be.

P.S
before you go on rambling about how wrong I interpreted your message
and point out flows in my analogy of your "dilemma"
I just want you to know that I love disagreeing with you as much as you
like disagreeing with me
I love teasing you as much you love teasing me and most of all
I love seeing your exasperated face as much as you enjoyed seeing mine
hahaha
so maybe I'm just doing this to irritate you
but then again
maybe I'm right...

P.S part 2
who told you I'm drawing lines ha???
but I wouldn't mind taking credit for the so-called "orbits"
that seem to have a dual purpose
which is to draw a definite line to help us stay in our boundaries
and thus help us keep a certain distance from each other
but which also serves as the connecting "lasso" that keep us all
together
and uhm THANK YOU for the "compliment"
but I really think that a lot of "girls" understand you
maybe you just don't want to accept that they do

aun
special ang post ko for you
hahaha
ma-touch ka ha
and yeah
I'm doing this
because
4TH YEAR NA AKO!
whatever that means..
hahaha
miss you
and by the way
im thinking bout signing that
"contract" of yours
if you're willing to drop a few conditions
;p

=)

senior year so far..

its the second day of school and
i've met all my teachers except for one
I've been to all my classes and I
am quite optimistic that all will turn out
well this year
I think I have a great set of teachers
and I rather love the subjects that
I am taking this sem
I don't have accounting or finance
and I don't even have marketing
YeY!
I think I can manage a lot of As or B+s
this sem which would be
a good compensation for my parents since
they paid quite a fortune (76000 for one sem?!!)
man! that was really steep especially since they
were expecting a tuition fee of at least 58000
hehe!
but I think this sem is worth their money
because I'm gonna make damn sure it is
hehe!
anyway i gotta go
I have a report to do
=)

whateverdoihavetodo

Liquor cannot do it
Night outs cannot do it
Staying in bed cannot do it
Man! even the unwanted hangovers
cannot do it





so what will?

somebody better have a solution
coz I need it badly
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translation

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you…
My affection is real.
My love is real.
The moon represents my heart.

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you…
My affection does not waver,
My love will not change.
The moon represents my heart.

* Just one soft kiss
is enough to move my heart.
A period of time when our affection was deep,
Has made me miss you until now.

* You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you.

* ** Go think about it.
Go and have a look [at the moon],
The moon represents my heart.

partying.

stupid hangovers

i really have to stop this
kind of lifestyle.
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anyway...

i just have to say this

ANDY LAU and SAMMI CHENG
I LOVE YOU!!!
wo ai ni!
wo ai ni!
wo ai ni!

when they sang Yue Liang Dai
Biao Wo de Xin
together and then looked at each
other and held hands
I swear my heart melted..

i miss seeing them together
waaaahhhhh!!!

'Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin'

Ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen
Wo di qing ye zhen
Wo di ai ye zhen
Yue liang dai biao wo di xin

Ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen
Wo di qing bu yi
Wo di ai bu bian
Yue liang dai biao wo di xin

(Chorus)
Qing qing di yi ge wen
Yi jing da dong wo di xin
Shen shen di yi duan qing
Jiao wo si nian dao ru jin

Ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
Wo ai ni you ji fen
Ni qu xiang yi xiang
Ni qu kan yi kan
Yue liang dai biao wo di xin

(Chorus)