~please~

to fly and dream
are what angels are bound to do
to see and feel
are what humans are bound to do
to fly and feel
are something we ought not dare
to see and dream
are something we ought not dare
for the line though thin
should never cross
for life would widly spin
should we dare cross
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pictures
words
promises
hugs
kisses
dreams
mere replicas of reality
just part of a distant memory

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just because its written
it doesn't mean its for you

~writings~

i am not a writer
and i do not pretend to be one

judge me
criticize me

i don't care
just don't assume that the things I've written are not worth reading

i am not a speaker
and i never pretended I am one

hear me out
or not

i don't care either
just don't assume that the things I'd utter are not worth hearing

i write because i want to
i speak because i have to

this is what i do
this is what i WANT to do
now if you want to be a part of that
then understand that this is what i love doing
this is who i am
this is my world

open your eyes
maybe then you'd understand
this is ME



grrrr...

~the magic of poems~

Paano

paano mo maibabalik
ang pagtitiwalang sadyang nagpupumihik
paano mo muling aakapin
ang taong nililo ka't kung apihin
paano mo sisikapin
ang ibalik ang dating pagtingin
paano mo ibabalik
ang mga nasirang pagsabik

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My Destiny

Shadows linger
In my midst

Darkness follows
In my dreams

I can’t escape
I cannot hide

Left to nothing
But to raven’s
Purposeful plight

-hcir-

~missed~

~I MISS...
I MISS MY CHANCES. ~
- ACIL Logbook V.2

in every life there would
always be that one special moment

one chance to do it all
one chance to break it up
a moment meant for truth
a moment to strengthen a lie

during those rare occassions
you just have to rise up to the challenge
give everything one quick look
make the decision in a split second
then turn and see the result

when things dont go the way you plan
at least you did something

because its not all about emerging victorious
or winning every challenge
its all about taking chances
and braving the unknown

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every moment
every chance
was meant to be just that
because...

moments pass us by

~stumbling~

HANGING BY A MOMENT

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where I started
Chasing after you

Chorus:
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I crash sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm divin' into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There is nothing else to lose
There is nothing else to find
There is nothing in the world
That could change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where I started
Chasing after you


I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you



favorite ko pa rin tooooohhhhhh
grabe reminisce nung bday ni dre
waaahhhh
miss ko na toh

~YOU~

You And Me

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
And I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me
And all of the people
With nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me
And all of the people
And I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

Well all of the things
That I wanna say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me
And all of the people
With nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me
And all of the people
And I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is bright

Cause it's you and me
And all of the people
With nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me
And all of the people
And I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of

Cause its You and me
And all of the people
With nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me
And all of the people
And I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

~joyride~

i was told that
riding with me
IS DEFINITELY AN ADVENTURE
its not one of those rollercoaster rides
where you're speeding down the road at 180km/hr
they say that with me you don't have to worry about overspeeding or overturning cars
what you have to worry about though is whether you'd be there on time
coz i sure want to take it slow
but still they ride with me

with me behind the wheel
you're sure to experience a near heart attack episode
not because i was driving too fast (i could go up to a 90 but that's as far as i can go)
but because of recklessness and unavoidance
yeah what you've go to watch out for when you're with me are THE HUMPS (i can still hear santi screaming Bebeth!..hehehe)
nearly every one would agree that I'm a little careless about that especially at night

and another thing is
that when you're riding in my car
every part seems to fall apart and disengage when you apply too much pressure
so you have to be careful coz everything seems to be so fragile

and when im driving be sure to ready your heart for some serious nerve-wracking situation
why?
coz when im parked and have to back up the car and gear it into reverse
im 95% sure to bump into something and im sure as hell that you're going to scream
your lungs out everytime i hit something (Dre: Beth! may something sa likod. hahaha)

so still wanna ride with me?
i bet you still do
you wanna experience it dont you...
just be sure that when you ride with me
you put your seatbelt on
coz riding with me
is anything but a quiet, calm and invigorating ride
with me
you're sure to get
one
helluva
of
a
ride
*wink*
=)

headache

i have a pounding headache
feels like its splitting into a gazillion pieces
but at least i was able to finish all my classes
and to keep socializing with people (pero not xur if amiable ako kanina..hahaha)
my head really feels like its going to explode
the medicine i took didn't worked
i've tried everything na nga eh
nothing seems to work
pro ang galing noh
im still blogging
hahahaha
=)

nwy
kanina my mom and I were at my lola's house
and a "family colleague" was there
and to tell you honestly
i don't actually like that "family colleague" of ours
why?
one, she's VERY VERY talkative
two, she's so mahangin
three, she's really RUDE
four, she keeps on pushing me to that son of his
duh feel naman niya type ko anak niya
kakainis
and kanina I had the pleasure of accompanying her to her house which is
a few blocks away from ours
this is how the conversation went:
HER: san ka nga nag-aaral hija?
Me: Ateneo po
HER: anong year mo na? (i have told her a hundred times that im a sophomore)
Me: *exasperated smile* 2nd year po
HER: Management noh, un anak ko din nagmamanagement na ngayon
Me: *polite smile* ah ganun po ba
HER: nagmamasters na un ngayon eh (sa isip ko nyek ang tanda na nun noh)
Me: hmmmnn
HER: anong year ka nga pinanganak
Me: 1987 po
HER: ah ung anak ko 1980 (natawa ako but i disguised it at kunwari na-ubo nlng ako)
Me: ah 1980 po, bkt po college pa din? (ang straight-forward but i don't care i want to know eh)
HER: ndi nagmamasters na xa, kasi kailangan sa trabaho, eto nga't busy na naman
Me: ahhhhh
HER: pupunta na naman kami sa London eh kaya naghahabol un puntahan muna namin kuya nya
Me: hmmmnn
HER: ndi mo ba nakikita ung anak ko? matangkad un <6 POOT tall
Me: eh ndi po ako naglalalabas eh
HER: eto ha ndi naman sa pagmamayabang pro magandang lalake talaga ung bunso kong un..nung college un siya ang captain ng WEIGHTS team nila
Me: ah ganun po ba (all the while thinking=> eww ang freaky muscle builder..hahaha)
HER: minsan pag-labas din nun sa umaga papakilala kita
Me: hahaha..cge po uwi na ko gabi na po eh baka hanapin ako ni daddy alam niyo naman po un strict(thank god we're at her doorstep na)
HER: cge hija, haayy ang laki mo na tlaga, naalala ko noon bata ka pa..hahaha (duh magreminisce daw ba)

grabe..as far as i can remember...ndi ako pinapansin maxado nun nung bata pa ko..she's too busy flirting with my dad..hahaha...then when I entered highschool hala ayan na nagsimula na ang pag-reto niya sa mga anak niya sa amin ng kapatid ko
ndi pa kaya namin nakikita ung mga anak niyang un ever at ang tanda na kaya nila for us..narealize nya un sa kapatid ko so tinigilan ang sister ko pro ako ewan feel ata niya since 7 years lang ang pagitan namin may pag-asa..nku frustrated na ata tlga xa na mapabilang sa pamilya namin..hahaaha..ayw nmn ni dad sa knila noh..hahaha..cge na tama na nga to..gusto ko lang tlga ishare kc nakakatawa...cge na ang sakit tlga ng ulo ko..

~magic~

magic

wands, fairies, magic dusts, flying carpets, and all those other wonderful things
the inner youth within you can think of..

but its not just about that

like everything else in this life
it has 2 faces as well

curses, witches, black cats, potions, badspells and unsightly flying brooms etc.

those things
are often mentioned in stories where they are synonymous to words such as
BAD, EVIL, DANGEROUS
the only story I can think of where they're not seen in a bad light is HARRY POTTER


its actually sad because a lot of us are blind
we only see the side of magic we want to see or those that we were accustomed to
often we refuse to look at things we are not familiar with
because they are strange, and according to social norms dictated by our society
STRANGENESS is a deviant act
it does not adhere to social norms therefore it is most probably a danger to social order

and MAGIC
IS something STRANGE
that's why we create a so-called good side(eg. fairies granting wishes, magic dusts enabling people to fly, wands used to fight evil) to magic
and shunned the other created so-called bad side (eg. lovepotions, withcraft, astrology) of magic
so we could justify our one-sided view of magic
so we could defend our favoritism
so we could make ourselves believe the TRUTH we CREATED

that magic is always good, is always for the good, will forever be good

no witches, definitely no witchcraft, no potions, no badspells

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ako
i just want to feel the MAGIC

don't have to think, don't have to see, don't have to judge whether its wrong or right, bad or good, real or not

i'll take whatever it offers

it is afterall
just

*MAGIC*

joke time

ok so after that rant about the damn katipunan traffic
i decided to check my mail and saw this
lalang
juz for some laughs
naaliw ako eh
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GF: I'm warning you! darating na si daddy within 1
hour!
BF: Eh ano ngayon? eh wala naman tayong ginagawang
masama ah!
GF: Kaya nga! kung may plano ka, DALIAN MO NA!!

Misis: lolokohin ko mister ko, magpapanggap ako na
prosti dito sa kanto namin (dumaan ang mister nya...)
Misis: Pogi! available ako ngayon, pwede ka ba?
Mister: Yoko sayo kamukha mo misis ko!Hurmph

Pedro bumps a foreigner
Pedro: ay sori
Foreigner: sorry too
Pedro: sori 3
Foreigner: what are you sorry for?
Pedro: (kala mo b**o ako ha!) sori 5
Foreigner: i think you are sick!
Pedro: hahahaha! sick daw, seven sunod!

Anak: Itay, bibili ako ng b o nd paper
Itay: Anak, wag kang b**o ha? hindi "b o nd paper" ang
tawag dun!
Anak: Ano po ba?
Itay: "Kokongban"

Farmer: lalaki na talaga ang aking anak kasi magsasaka
na, "ano ang plano
mong itanim sa sakahan mo anak?"
Anak: flowers papa! lots of Bongacious Flowers!!Big
Smile

Nay? bakit po VICTORIA ang name ni ate?
Kasi anak dun namin siya ginawa ng itay mo...
Eh bakit si kuya, ANITO?
Ay, tumigil ka na nga Luneta at baka mapalo kita!
tawagin mo na si kuya FX mo!

WIFE: Himala! aga mong umuwi ngayon.
HUSBAND: Sunod ko lang utos ng boss ko. Sabi nya "GO
TO HELL",
Kaya ito uwi agad ako

Two nurses on duty...
Nurse 1: Hoy! Gaga, bakit may thermometer sa tenga mo!
Nurse 2: Ha? susmaryosep! kaninong pwet ko kaya naiwan
yung ballpen
ko!!Shocked

Sino mas kawawa? yung taong iniwan ng mahal nya?
o mga taong nagmamahal ng walang gusto sa kanya?
pareho lang di ba?
pero mas kawawa yung taong...
bihis na bihis na tapos...
hindi naman pala kasama !?!

Ama: Buntis anak ko, panagutan mo!
BF: May asawa na po ako!
Ama: Pano 'to?
BF: Areglo na lang po... 2 M pag Boy, 2.5M pag Girl
Ama: Ok, pero pag nakunan. GIB HER ANADER CHANS ha?

whew!

i have just gone through a heavy traffic lasting for almost an hour
grabe! on normal circumstances I would have been at school at around 11:30 when I leave the house at 10:45
but today
I left the house at around 10:50 and I got to school at about 12:05
sobrang ang heavy talaga ng traffic at ang nakakainis pa dun eh ang lapit lapit ko na sa ADMU
sa may Katipunan na kc ung traffic
and it wasn't moving for like 20 minutes
grabe nakakapgod
my legs are hurting sobra at feeling ko magvovomit ako coz of motion sickness or sumting
buti nlng when i got inside ADMU wla ung usual traffic at diretso lang ang drive
haaaayyy
the disadvantages of driving nga naman
=(
oh well
cge i gotta go
still feeling dizzy
hehehe
gotta rest for awhile

today

today I :

* woke up early(7:00 am) even if i don't have a morning class
* met f*y at starbucks then ate an EARLY LUNCH at pancake house (early meaning 10:00 or something)
* walked all the way under the hot sun (though f*y thought that it wasn't hot at all) from pancake house to ateneo cov courts (i walked all the way because for some weird reason all tricycles seem to vanish from the face of the earth at that time)
*went to PE class and lifted 10 lbs of dumbell, 25 lbs of barbel, 60 lbs of lat pull and 100 lbs of leg press (they were all done in 12 rep, 3 sets each in at least 2 different exercises and accompanied by an 80 rep of abdominal exercises and 30 mins running and warm up exercises galore)
*TRIED to study for accounting and again TRIED to answer the d*mN! long problems (but to no avail)
*got the results of our accounting LT (i can't explain how i feel)
*went here to type all of the above


=> right now i am feeling tired but restless, ok but sad, and focused yet confused
in short
MAGULO AKO NGAYON

i Wanna Rub You in a Closet ..(now why does that sound so horny..hahaha! )

so nakita ko ito sa friendster bulletin board ko..pinost ng isang friend..hahaha
natatawa lang ako..ang Porno nung akin eh...tignan niyo..hehehe =)


> this is a fun way to know someones birthday!
> haha!
>
> take the month and day you were born..
>
> January: i WANNA RUB YOU
> February: i WANNA TAKE YOU TO SEX
> March: i WANNA MARRY YOU
> April: i WANNA TOUCH YOU
> May: i WANT YOUR BODY
> June: i WANNA DANCE WiTH YOU
> July: i WANNA HOLD YOUR HAND
> August: i WANNA LiCK YOU
> September: i WANNA MAKE YOU MINE
> October: i WANNA SEX YOU
> November: i WANNA LOVE YOU
> December: i WANNA KISS YOU
>
>
> Now take the day you were born:
>
> x01. ON THE ROOF
> x02. WENEVER WHERE EVER
> x03. ON A PARK BENCH
> x04. iN AN ELEVATOR
> x05. ON THE STAiRS
> x06. ON THE COUNTER
> x07. ON THE WAY TO SCHOOL
> x08. iN A ClOSET
> x09. ON ViDEO CAMERA
> x10. ON THE TOiLET
> x11. iN THE SHEETS
> x12. iN THE BASEMENT
> x13. iN THE BACK OF A CAR
> x14. WHiLE WATCHiNG PORN
> x15. BETWEEN THE LEGS
> x16. iN A CAR
> x17. IN THE HOT TUB
> x18. iN THE LAUNDRY ROOM
> x19. iN THE SWiMMiNG POOL
> x20. WiTH STRAWBERRiES
> x21. iN THE DRESSiNG ROOM
> x22. iN THE RAIN
> x23. AT A GAS STATiON
> x24. iN THE STATiON WAGON
> x25. iN THE ATTiC
> x26. AT WoRLdS Of fUn
> x27. ALL NiGHT LONG
> x28. AT MY GRANDPARENTS HOUSE
> x29. WiTH KiWi
> x30. AT THE POST OFFiCE
> x31. iN THE BATH TUB
>
> Repost or get bad luck with your lover for
> TEN YEARS. Besides, this is a fun way to
> learn EVERYBODY'S BIRTHDAY

hmmm...

“….my life, for the most part, has been very stale and colorless. Dead, I mean. The world has always been an empty place to me. I was incapable of enjoying even the simplest things. I felt dead in everything I did.’ He brushed the dirt from his hands. ‘But then it changed,’ he said. ‘The night I killed that man…..It was the most important night of my life,’ he said calmly. ‘It enabled me to do what I’ve always wanted most.’
‘Which is?’
‘To live without thinking.’
Bees buzzed loudly in the honeysuckle. He went back to his rosebush, thinning the smaller branches at the top.’

-HENRY
Secret history by Donna Tartt