reversing things twice

i sometimes wonder why i let this happen to me

the same thing over and over

the foolish wishes, hopes and dreams

all romantic delusions

i somehow thought it would be over

convince myself first loser is not my perpetual place

thinking that it is better this way

i think in reverse sometimes

Hoping it will change things

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written while taking a break from working on that case
p.s i also sometimes wonder what i haven't learned yet that it has to occur over and over