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PERFECT
A perfect boyfriend is someone who would discreetly hold my hand in order to show me, however implicitly, his encouragement and support. He is someone who would hug me without fuss and would understand that I really just want to be held. He would not whisper words of love every time we kiss but he would kiss me sweetly bestowing in each lock of our lips all of his love. He would not promise me the world but he would endeavor to stay even when the whole world wants to leave. He would introduce me to his friends and would not care whether they like me or not. He would not mind if we spent time with my friends even if our dates were always cut short because we have to meet them. He would respect my need for privacy and would not pry on things that I deemed not important to him. He would not mind if I do not constantly text him because he knew how busy I can get. He would not wipe my eyes dry when I cry but he would tenderly hold me and let me cry my fill. He would not want to own my heart but would instead put all of his efforts in making me want to share his life. He would not treat me as a fragile, delicate princess but would treat me as his equal in every way. He would ignore me when he is angry, snap at me when he is irritated and throw little boy tantrums when I tease him but he would apologize thereafter and treat me with utmost respect. He would tease me, plague me and shower me with silly jokes in order to make me smile. He would also try his very best to take me out of my comfort zone. He would not promise me a happily ever after but would try to make everyday a fairytale worth telling. And most importantly, he would not lie to me and only say I LOVE YOU when he truly means it.

STEADY CASUAL AND LIGHT
I would have wanted my college life like this. Steady, casual and light. Sometimes when I’m gossiping nonsense and laughing like a hyena with my law school friends, I can’t help thinking how different it was when I was in college. I don’t feel as out of place here as I was there. I had friends there of course but somehow I never really adjusted. I always feel like I should prove that I deserve to stay and I never felt as relaxed as I am here. Always running around, rushing like crazy and fighting like hell to keep my place. It’s a pity really because I don’t think I fully enjoyed all that college life had to offer. There was always something more important to do and I never get to just hang out and have fun. But don’t get me wrong, I loved being at ADMU. ADMU was everything I always knew it to be and then some. More than some actually. But there was so much drama there, it was very heavy. I never felt quite right. At least here, even if I don’t like the polluted place, I don’t feel as heavy as I used to. Like I said, its STEADY, CASUAL AND LIGHT here. Full of Angels and mean girls like me. Hahaha! =)

Goodbye, war…

Red skies
The few who are standing are still fighting
Gunshots and chaos
I can feel the blood dripping

White clouds
A flag is raised and put up
Cheers and victory shouts
I am relieved to know it is finally over

Blue moon
There is smoke all over
Hazy and obscure
I had always feared this calm aftermath

Black night
There are no stars
Darkness and then silence
I never knew it could be this serene…

-rich-