RaNt

Monday, May 29, 2006

one more day

i deem to transcend the borders of infinity
and vow my vendetta upon such affinity
the success of thus is not discernible
but rest assure i am capable

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yey! one more day before summer classes ends

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

~drained~

"happiness is a state of mind, not JUST a state of being"
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and right now
that is what i desperately need
a state of mind
that can actually keep me going
coz
i think im LOSING it
really losing it
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a ray of light
one shot of hope
a reason to fight
one more cause

an insight to live
a source of dreams
a motive to leave
an impending end
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is that too much to ask for?
is it so hard to bring back my inspiration?
is it too difficult to do?
is giving me back what is rightfully mine wrong?

then maybe its true
coz
im damned if i do and damned if i don't
either way im lost
=(
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Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

-carrie underwood

Monday, May 22, 2006

LIAR

i juz can't help but share this...
e2 nangyari kanina habang bumibili ako ng ticket for the da vinci code movie kasama ang 4 na blockmates ko
MY FIRST EVER SUCCESSFUL LIE TO A PROFESSIONAL
hahaha

ako: 5 tickets da vinci
cashier: 5 tickets miss?
ako: (looking bored pro ang heartbeat 50x more than normal) yes
cashier: um how old are you miss?
ako: (nervous smile) 19
cashier: e ung mga kasama mo?
ako: (stuttering a little pro mukhang convincing pa din) 19 din, magkaklase kami
cashier: my id kayo lahat miss?
ako: ako meron (shows license, trying to conceal shakey hand)
cashier: (scrutinizing my license) cge miss, 4:00 na po ung showing magstastart na
ako: (smiling) thank you!


hahahaha
=)
kulit noh
hehe
uhmmm
what can i say bout da vinci the movie?
not as good as i expected pro lagi nmn gnun
when u've read the book
sigurado madidisappoint ka sa movie
gnun tlga eh kc nasira ung sarili mong version ng story
kaya u can't help but feel disappointed
and you know what
i don't see what all the debate regarding censorship is about
i mean
its not even as convincing or as shattering as the book
its not even close
sobrang kung mag-kakaimpact man ung movie
baka maliit lang
kc sobrang ang dami nacut at nabago
un lng
till nxt time

Saturday, May 20, 2006

~answers~

I once knew all the answers
I stood on certain ground
A picture of TRUE HAPPINESS
CONFIDENCE SO EFFORTLESS
No brighter could be found

I NEVER ASKED the questions
That trouble me today
I knew all there was to know
Love worn lightly
Put on show
My conquests on display

AND WHO'D HAVE THOUHT
CONFIDENCE COULD DIE?
NOT ME, Not me
THAT ALL I TOOK FOR GRANTED WAS A LIE

Not me, Not me
And who'd have guessed
I'd throw my world away

To be with someone I'm afraid will say
Not me,not me

-radames-
-AIDA-

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sometimes people keep on searching
searching for everything that fate wouldn't allow for them to find
like answers to questions
questions that are otherwise unanswerable
and i guess i am one of those people
forever searching but never finding
am i really bound to be like that?
i hope not...
=(
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*drained
very drained

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why can't econ be simple? why? why? why?
and why is ma'am so good and motherly?
making me feel so guilty and ashamed and disappointed with myself
why does everything have to be so damn complicated?
and to add to everything else..why did i even took up MGT?
WWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYY????????
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nasan na c lizbeth?
nasan na ung dating ako?
nasan na?
i miss myself

Monday, May 15, 2006

quotable quotes

well i saw this one on my friendster bulletin and i thought it would be nice to post it here...just for some thoughts and laughs
hehe
=)
enjoy!
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Josie Geller: Sometime you'll kiss someone and
know that's the person you're supposed to kiss
for the rest of your life.
---NEVER BEEN KISSED

The only wrong thing would be to deny what your
heart truly feels.
---THE MASK OF ZORRO

You will see a lot of things,
But they will mean nothing to you
If you lose sight of the one you love.
---AT FIRST SIGHT

If you love someone you say it...
you say it right then,
out loud...
or the moment just...
passes you by.
---MY BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING

I would rather have had
One breath of her hair,
One kiss from her mouth,
One touch of her hand,
Than an eternity without it...
---CITY OF ANGELS

Fate exists but it can only take you so far,
Because once you're there
It's up to you to make it happen.
---CAN'T HARDLY WAIT

When you've found that person you want to spend
the rest of ur life with, you want the rest of
ur life to begin right away."
---When Harry Met Sally

"Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you
walk away with nothing."
---Ally McBeal

"if two people are meant for each other, it
doesnt mean that they are meant for each other
NOW."

---pacey whitter "DAWSON'S CREEK"


Lois: You know, if somebody had asked me three
days ago who the one person in the world I
admired most was, I'd have said you. But,
without really knowing what that meant. Without
understanding that the hardest thing about being
you is all the things you can't do. All the
cries for help that you can't answer, and how
that quietly tears you apart. But it never stops
you. And after living a little of that myself, I
realized something...something I never thought
was possible.
Clark: What?
Lois: I love you more. More than I ever have and
more than I ever
thought I could love anyone, and so, I wanna
ask ... Will you marry me?
---LOIS AND CLARK

I know it's a cornball thing, but love is
passion,obsession, someone you can't live
without. If you don't start with that, what are
you going to end up with? I say fall head over
heels. Find someone you love like crazy and
who'll love you the same way back. And how do
you find him? Forget your head and listen to
your heart... Take the risk, if you get hurt,
you'll come back. Because the truth is, there is
no sense living your life without this. To make
the journey and not fall deeply in love -- well,
you haven't lived a life at all. You have to
try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't
lived... Stay open. Who knows? Lightning could
strike.
---MEET JOE BLACK


Man: "Will you love me for the rest of my life?"
Woman: "I will love you for the rest of mine."
---PHENOMENON

I guarantee it won't be easy
I guarantee that at one point or another
One of us is going to want to leave.
But I also guarantee that
If I don't ask you to be mine
I am going to regret it
For the rest of my life
Because I know in my heart
You are the only one for me.
---RUNAWAY BRIDE

Dear Catherine,

I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I
feel I've been
lost. No bearings, no compass. I kept crashing
into things, a little crazy I guess. I've never
been lost before. You were my true north. I
could always steer for home when you were my
home. Forgive me for being so angry when you
left. I still think some mistake's been made and
I'm waiting for God to take it back. But I'm
doing better now. The work helps me. Most of
all, you help
me.

You came into my dream last night with that
smile of yours that always held me like a lover,
rocked me like a child. All I remember from the
dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that
feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I
could.

I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey
toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry
about so many things. I'm sorry I didn't take
better care of you so that you never spent one
minute being cold or scared or sick. I'm sorry I
didn't try harder to find the words to tell you
what I was feeling. I'm sorry I never fixed the
screen door. I fixed it now. I'm sorry I ever
fought with you. I'm sorry I didn't apologize
more. I was too proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring
you more compliments on everything you wore and
every way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I
didn't hold on to you with so much strength that
even God couldn't pull you away.

All my love. G.
---MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE

"The only feeling of real loss is when you love
someone, more than you love yourself."
---GOOD WILL HUNTING


When you love someone,
And you love them with your heart,
It never disappears when you're apart.
When you love someone
And you've done all you can do,
You set them free.
And if that love was true,
When you love someone
It will all come back to you
---FORGET PARIS

You cannot find true love where it does not
truly exist. And you cannot hide it where it
truly does.
---KISSING A FOOL


I created my very own first breakup rule:
Destroy all pictures where he looks sexy and you
look happy.
Breakup rule No. 2: Until
emotionally stabilized, enter no stores.
Breakup
rule No. 3: Never stop thinking about him, even
for a moment. because that's the moment he'll
appear.
And finally, the most important breakup
rule: No matter who broke your heart or how long
it takes to heal, you'll never get through it
without your friends.
---Carrie, from the sitcom SEX AND THE CITY


" i miss you so much it hurts"
---SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE


"Half my days i cannot bear not to touch you,
the rest of the time i feel it doesn't matter
if i ever see you again. It isn't the mortality,
it is how much you can bear....."
---THE ENGLISH PATIENT


Do you believe in love? I bet you don't, you're
probably too
sensible for that. Have you ever seen someone
and you know that if only that person really
know you, they'd dump the perfect model they
were with and realize that you are the one they
want to grow old with? Have you ever fallen in
love with someone you've never talked to? Have
you ever been so alone you spent the night
confusing a guy in a coma?
---WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING


"anything less than mad, passionate,
extraordinary love is a
waste of your time. there are too many mediocre
things in life to deal with and love shouldn't
be one of them."
---A DREAM FOR AN INSOMNIAC


"i'm here to love you, to hold you in my arms
and to protect you. i'm here to learn from you
and to receive your love in return. i'm here coz
there's no other place to be."
---MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE


"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of
what I saw, of what I did, of who I am. And most
of all, I'm scared of walking out of this
room and never feeling the rest of my whole life
the way I feel when I'm with you."
---DIRTY DANCING


"When you kiss someone, everything around you
becomes hazy... and the only thing in focus is
you and this person... And you realize that this
person is the only person you should be kissing
for the rest of your life... And for one moment,
you get, this amazing gift... And you wanna
laugh and you wanna cry... Cuz you feel so lucky
that you've found it and so scared that it'll go
away all at the same time..."
---NEVER BEEN KISSED


"It's funny how we set qualifications for the
right person to love
while at the back of our minds we know that the
person we trully love will always be an
exception"
---Ally McBeal


"how can you assume to be friends with someone
when all you think about when you look at him is
how much more you really want?"
-joey, DAWSON'S CREEK


if two people love each other, but just cant
seem to put things together, when would that
point be.. when one would say enough is enough?
NEVER.
---THE MEXICAN


"So this is love...so this is what makes life
divine. I'm all aglow,
and now I know. The key to all heaven is mine.
My heart has wings, and I can fly. I'll touch
every star in the sky. So this is the miracle,
that I've been dreaming of... So this is love."
---CINDERELLA


Don't you understand? That everything I do, I do
for you? Anything that might be special in
me...is you.
---GREAT EXPECTATIONS


One day, you look at the person and see more
than you did the day
before, like a switch was flickered somewhere.
And the person who was just a friend is suddenly
the only person you can imagine yourself with.
-Xfiles (series)

I feel like the best version of myself when i'm
with you... and that makes me doubt everything
else.
---KEEPING THE FAITH

Is it possible to be just friends with someone i
have these sort of non-moderate feelings for?...
Or am I doomed forever to just be in love and
ultimately significantly hurt?
-Felicity


"There are some people who meet that somebody
that they can
never stop loving, no matter how hard they try.
I wouldn't expect you to understand that, oer
even believe it, but trust me, there are some
love that don't go away. And maybe that makes
them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up
with that somebody who has a little of that
insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody
who cherishes you forever."
--- Ally Mc Beal

Sunday, May 14, 2006

haayyy

i h8 economics..as much as i h8 math
ang weird ng life
haaayyy
*sigh*

Friday, May 12, 2006

8 months and counting

figured out what?
nah..won't tell you
(edit)
juz in a senti mood lately kc naman mga blog ng people ang drama eh..nakakahawa..hehehe
ang weird nga eh..parang nafifil ko ung nafifil nila...weh ang corny ko nananaman..
nwy
(edit)
eto lang masasabi ko sa mga tao

*the heart decides, and what it decides is all that really matters*
-Paulo Coelho


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The Heart May Freeze Or It Can Burn
The Pain Will Ease If I Can Learn

There Is No Future
There Is No Past
I Live This Moment
As My Last

There's Only Us
There's Only This
Forget Regret
Or Life Is Yours To Miss
No Other Road
No Other Way
No Day But Today

-Mimi Marquez
RENT

a bunch of crap

crappiness
-SUN network is not working properly...i don't like what's happening

haunted
-the past is forcefully rushing back..its giving me the creeps

lost
-somebody's afraid of losing me...ha!

reality
-is certainly biting again..in the form of "qucai"

jealousy
-the root of all troubles..haay..stop na kc..its kinda hurtin na

silent
-the world is currently silent..undoubtedly conspiring against me

weirdness
-being manifested in a certain somebody..ayusin mo kc!

smilies
-they are currently on the verge of conquering my screensaver..hehe

water
-hmmmm life

rain
-synonymous with mud,stickiness and wet feeling

sunshine
-being missed by me


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namimiss na kita
un lng


*note to self
wag ka matakot

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

~overwhelmed~

i meant to write something yesterday but blogspot seemed to have a problem and I wasn't able to access my account so I was left with no choice but to keep every thought I have yesterday to myself. And now that blogspot seems to be ok again I can write again..hahaha..

overwhelmed
why overwhelmed?
just kind of loaded with a lot of things
emotions,feelings,thoughts,problems,studies,family....LIFE
been doing a lot of additional readings and I am starting to learn a lot
about things
been looking at things in a different perspective
anyway

tinatamad na ko magtype...
ipopost ko nalang un iba sa ibang araw

pero eto ha
check nyo itong link na to
and cute: =)

http://www.blueyze.com/lostinyoureyes.html

ska I highly recommend the book
BY THE RIVER PIEDRA I SAT DOWN AND WEPT
especially for those love-forsaken, struggling people
hahaha

Monday, May 08, 2006

~vacuum~

ever heard of "POLITICAL VACUUM"?
well its something like there is a government but it has no power, there is a revolution with no direction and there are fighting with absolutely no sure cause.
I know it may sound so weird at first but when you get to think about it, it actually makes sense.
When there are political uprisings everywhere and petty rallies & demonstrations littering the streets, you know that the political and not to mention economic situation of a country is unstable.
And those aforementioned signs above are perfect indicators that a so-called "political vacuum" MAY occur.
And i so wish it would occur here, why? Because perhaps that is just what this forsaken country needs. A government with no REAL POWER, because then the power would be in the hands of the people. But I am not saying that that is a good thing. I don't trust the people either but at least we could count on the fact that power would be distributed to a lot of other individuals rather than just a few CORRUPTED minority.
And then perhaps after that "political vacuum" occurence, a leader will surface. A leader worth respecting, a leader who would help this country rise again.

....yeah i know...kind of getting a little wistful there with the ideal leader stuff but hey its not bad to hope right. haaayyyy

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sorry for that political/nationalistic post above
just kind of getting a little frustrated with the political system here
and my studying Western history this summer is not exactly helpful
on the contrary it helps aggravate my concern regarding the current situation of our country
I just can't help but compare and the more I compare the more I see the flaws...
uhmmm
just to clear what i had said earlier
when i said i want a "political vacuum" to occur it doesn't mean i want a revolution without direction and fighting without a cause to occur as well
of course i dont want that
what i want is a REVOLUTION with a GOAL and fighting with A CAUSE
but you have to understand that i am part of the bourgeoisie/middle class
thus you have to expect that what i have here are mere words and of course no actions on my part
and that's what separates MCs from other society ranks. Mcs just as my Filipino11/12 professor said and reiterated by my History professor, are individuals who bother criticizing the issues but never bother to take part in any movement unless they are directly affected.
but i am YET to prove i am not one of them
for now categorize me as such

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anyway enough of that history and political talk
but as we are on the subject of history and since i have mentioned my history professor i might as well share something about him
as most of you know i love history
eversince i began to know about history i have loved it and tertiary level history is no exception
i am loving every minute i spend sitting in my classroom discussing history and learning about different countries and obviously i love my professor as well
he is not the usual history professor that students envisioned
he is YOUNG but not that young...he is probably in the early thirties or late twenties
he has a well-modulated voice...not that loud that you jumped every time he speaks and not that soft that you have to actually bring a hearing-aid to help you understand what he is saying
he uses fun visual aids every after a chronological lapse in the lesson
he writes the lesson in an outlined manner that you just have to copy his writings on the board to have notes that are already organized and following a chronological order
he doesn't want you to memorize any date, any hero, and for that matter any important person..what matters to him is that you understand what happened in that part of the history and how it can help you realize what can be done in the future
and
he gives easy tests just multiple choice and a few essay questions
hehehehe
i sooo love him and history
=)

here's a few of what he said that made the class really laugh today ---slightly paraphrased---
"imagine Fr.Bienvenido Nebres announcing one day I DECLARE THE ATENEO AN INDEPENDENT COUNTRY FROM THE PHILIPPINES, ALL ATENEANS NOW ARE MY SUBJECTS. I AM NOW KING BEN AND WE ARE NOT ANYMORE UNDER THE GOVERNMENT do we have the money to support us? why yes of course! ibenta nyo lang lahat ng laptops, kotse at cellphones galing sa lahat ng estudyante dito eh meron na tayong malaKing mahahakot na pera.(laugh) do we have the means to defend ourselves? cge ganto si GMA would send the MMDA(laugh) sa may Gate3 at susugurin tayo, si Fr.Nebres now King Ben would then say ALL RIGHT ALL YOU ROTCs POSITION YOURSELF AT GATES123 AND DEFEND ADMU. Magkakaroon tuloy tayo ng BATTLE OF JOLIBEE at TREATY OF THE OVERPASS(laugh) o dba? think if that will happen...(laugh)..."


ok yan nlng muna
sakit na ng kamay ko kakatype

Sunday, May 07, 2006

saturday bowling

yesterday i had fun
sobra fun
bowling sa mega
at kain sa pizza hut
miss ko na ang ganung feeling
ang saya at kulit ng mga tao
haaaayyyy
we should do that kind of stuffs more often
miss those guys like hell!!!
hehehe
=)
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there was a kind of revelation last night
i came to a sudden understanding of a certain situation
can you believe i was enlightened?
hmmmmnnn

Thursday, May 04, 2006

down down down

fine
second highest
smile ka naman the whole time
pinuri ka eh
pero deep inside hiyang-hiya ka
at natatakot dahil alam mong may kapalit ang saya
all the while kinakabahan ka para sa next subject
-nervous-
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and predictably you failed
and for the first time in your life you get to see a note from your teacher
saying
"please see me after class"
-dumbfounded-

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in college i get to experience a lot of firsts
firsts that are not necessarily good
first F
first 0/10
first time to be asked if you understand the subject
first time to feel the freaky feeling of not being able to follow what your teacher is teaching
first time to attend summer classes
first time to be reprimanded for being unusually noisy
first time to cut a class
first time to be reprimanded for being successively late
and i can go on naming a lot of other "firsts" but i think the space wouldn't be enough for them
haayyyyy
just feeling UBERLY disappointed
=(
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some of my highschool friends were surprised when i said that i was having a difficult time understanding Economics
well it wasn't that different from HS economics but i somehow always fail to write the correct answers
i understand the topic
believe it or not
I REALLY DO
and often the mistakes i made are careless overlooking on my part
haaayyy
and the perfect example of that
MY LT#1
overlooked one number, of course the following numbers are successively wrong
multiplied the whole equation to .10 when it should be .9
haaayyyyy
=(

so why am i writing this?
so unlike me to share stuffs like this
but i am just so disappointed with myself right now
this is the only way i know to help me recover


LET THIS BE A REMINDER OF MY CARELESSNESS AND STUPIDITY

*note to self
never forget this day
promise you'll never allow the same thing to happen EVER again

-determined-

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

my day today

i saw this guy while i was walking towards my car
he was doing quite an unusual activity
he was FLYING A KITE but in a very, mind you, MANLY and not BOYISH way
i don't know if its just me but he really looked like a celebrity
tall...fair...well-built...nicely dressed...haaayyyy... ultimate crushable
and then he looked my way AND I in turn..........................
STUMBLE...
weh
i know
TURN OFF
i was sooooo embarassed
oh well
just have to say bye to mr.crushable
no chance whatsoever
hehehe

di bale
i can WAIT

uhmmm
wanna share something my professor said
"understanding that it is not just tolerance but acceptance"

nga pla
nabigay ko na ung ibang stuff toys kay barrios actually stuff toy lng kc ung iba kay bes ko ibibigay eh
un harry potter nga na calendar binigay ko na din kahit mahal na mahal ko ung calendar na un =(
eh
gnun tlga eh
have to do that
so
un
cge
nxt time
nln


 
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