worries

a lot of things have been worrying me
and I have not really slept that
well..
haaay

multiple messages

for some weird reason
my friends all
sent me the same messages
and here is the latest one

I will wait for that morning
when my first thoughts are not
of you. Then I would realize
that I had already let you go.
It will not be the same sunrise
but I will go through the day
knowing that my sunset will be
better...

but this next one actually made me
smile..
the analogy was so weird..

parang elevator lang yan..bt
moh pagsisiksikan ung sarili moh kung wla
ka ng pwesto? My hagdan naman. D mo
lang pnapansin...

these next messages are obviously for
bitter people..
hahaha..
don't know why they have to send it to
me though..i'm not bitter..
and i'm not in denial either! ;p

one day that person will wake up
realizing how much I really mean..
when that day comes,
I'll be waking up with someone who
already did.

we don't need a man
we may want them for some reasons..
but we don't need them..
when we've got problems..to whom
do we run 1st?
TO OUR GURLFRIENDS..
when we laugh..
to whom do we want to share
our stories?
TO OUR GURLFRIENDS..
so its obvious
with or without a man
we can survive...
remember this:
"man can fulfill our weakness
its true
but gurlfriends fulfill our strengths.."

toLivewithoutThinking...

Tagaytay...

despite the constant traffic
and the heated sun
i must say it was still worth it

the smiles and laughters we've all
shared along with the memories
more than made up for the terrible
ache in my right foot and the
ceaseless ranting of my mom about my
going home late

hehe

=)

wakeUp.

it was the least you could have done



Sayang...

~Interminable~

Why can't it be?
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
only friends
You came along
At the wrong place,
at the wrong time.....
Or was it me

-Why can't it be?
by 3rd Avenue
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In a world full of lies
and deception
it is only natural to
feel cautious
but when things don't go
your way and somehow
your defenses was penetrated
there is nothing else left for
you to do but to apply
damage control.
------------------

When you have began
questioning what happened
and when the INTERMINABLE
WHY
become a daily mantra
then that is when you can
say that you are ready
to move on.

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mood: determined
song: why can't it be?

for someone.

a phonecall in the afternoon
familiar voice on the other line
small talk
direct topic
then came the teasing
followed by the smile that
gets wider every second
then the laughing
and eventually the realizations.
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I had forgotten how easy it was to talk
to you.
How easy it was to laugh and be
comfortable.
I had forgotten how easy it was
to be ME.
I needed that talk.
I needed the assurance that I am indeed
right.
Thank you for letting me remember.
Also, for reminding me that though it was over, the
friendship and care would always be there.
Thank you too for calling me LIZBETH
its been awhile since I heard someone call me that
its a relief to hear my nickname without a catch on it
basta its been great
I love hearing news from you
even if "mayabang" at "feeler" ka paminsan
hahaha
=)

whathappenedtoday?

ADVENTURE

badtrip.

masakit na nga paa mo malalaman mo pa na 2/C lang ang nakuha niyong grade sa project.
hindi ka na nga nakapasok sa class wala ka pang upuan sa exam room.
umiiwas ka nga pero sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhana at pinagtatagpo talaga kayo.
iba na nga ang dinaan mo pero kailangan mo pa din silang makita.
dahan-dahan ka na ngang naglakad pero nadapa ka pa din.
nag-aaral ka na nga lang kailangan pang may magalit sayo.
wala ka na ngang ginagawa pero pilit sinasabing meron ka daw ginawa.
nagsasabi ka ng totoo pero ayaw nilang maniwala at iginigiit na sinungaling ka daw.
inaantok ka na nga at gusto mo na ngang matulog pero hindi pwede dahil may aayusin ka pang problema
at ito pinamatindi
pagod ka nga sa exam pero sorry daw kailangan mo daw kasing malaman na ganun na nga talaga wala ka ng magagawa pa dun.

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mga tao talaga oh
mas gusto pa nilang magkwento ng magkwento kahit alam naman nila na ayaw mo ng marinig yung mga kwento nila.
nakakairita at nakakaGAG*
L*CHe!!!
patulugin niyo naman ako
pagod na ko
pero wait hindi pala pwede
dahil kahit nga pla sa panaginip ko eh nandun sila "POWER RANGERS"
ayoko na
wala na ba akong pwede gawin na wala sila sa isip ko
ah alam ko na
FINANCE..
oo finance lang sagot dyan
sige sige
mag-aaral na ko
sa mga nagbabasa
paxnxa na sa post na ito
baliw lang talaga ako ngayon
hindi kinaya ng utak ko mga pangyayari
sorry..

~the sky~

what is sadder than a sunset sky?
An evening sky with no stars.

The sunset sky is a sad view mainly because
it is so dramatic and heavy. It fills
the place with red and orange, making it
appear that the world is on fire. It is
the perfect representation of uncontrolled
emotions about to burst.
When you see a sunset sky, you are induce
to feel, maybe even cry.

But the evening sky with no stars is quite
depressing. It has no color and devoid of
any light. It looks bland and unappealing.
It is numbness personified.
When you see an evening sky with no stars,
you do not feel anything. It does not
encourage you to feel.

The sunset sky makes you realize that
you are still alive. Colors are still present
and emotions are still felt. But the
evening sky with no stars makes you
see that you are slowly losing your hold on
life. The different hues are absorbed by
the black canvass of the night therefore
looking blank. It seems as though the sky
is dead.

and there lies the sadness...
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For D, K, T, G, M and P

March 14
white day?, chocolates for girls,philo orals,magic mirrors, homecooked lunches, pizza rolls
and oreos
powerpoint, valium, pamamaraan or pasakalye, electricity, chemistry, sparks, mandarin
and oas
pretentions, smiles, hurried and paranoid moments, psychology and hope
step up, mixed music and powerful dance moves, orange, mrt, lies,
and sense of direction
bitterness, chismis, overdose, anvil, inuman, cigarettes, Yo! , fasting and
affected

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on moments such as this
one does not need Valium to stay calm
all one needs are the reassuring smiles
of friends
on moments such as this
one does not need Ecstasy to forget
all one needs are silly and foolish antics
on moments such as this
one does not need beer to get by
all one needs are the almost unending chismis
of friends about other friends
and on moments such as this
the best way to get it over with
ICE CREAM BEFORE DINNER!

=)

thank you Lord for friends
REAL FRIENDS who stay
even when all you want to do
is be foolish and laugh all day

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Sometimes I want to cry out all my tears
But I'm scared no one will bother to show some care
And that's why I decided to keep it all inside
I don't care if it will be too hard to bear
Because sometimes even friends don't mind when you're in pain
As long as they see you smile, they'll assume you're ok...


the quote above may be true
but with REAL FRIENDS
they won't mind if you laugh and smile all day
and would even ride along
with all of your pretentions
but at the end of the day
when masks are set aside
and smiles slowly wear off
they would be there
to hold you tight
and reassure you that you are not alone

because with REAL FRIENDS
smiles are not certainties


They would want to see your smiles
but they are always going to watch your eyes...


because the eyes don't just tell everything
they are the certainty

THE END.

the magic words have been said
and so
the fairytale has now officially ended

let the new era begin..


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gracias por romper mi corazón otra vez.
espero que usted sea feliz.

--------
OPENNESS

Tonight the lights
are bare
And the night
dares me to stare

Tonight the winds
are rare
And the evening
whispers me to share

But I cannot do
even if I try
Better they have no clue
then I can stop to privately CRY

Tonight the skies
are clear
But the dark
induces me to fear

Tonight the phases
are sheer
But the silence
causes me to tear

I wish I can undo
But I can only cry
And though the dark has no hue
I still have to TRY...

hcir
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MOOD: blank
SONG: hate how much I love you

dEciDe...

if he asks for forgiveness...
Do I accept and live the truth?
Or do I deny and hope for the lie?

Is it better to hurt in truth
or live in false hope?

Would it matter if I
just close my eyes and believe
in the lie?

Is pain easier with truth or is
hurt better with a lie?

But then again,
if he asks for forgiveness...
am I ready to accept that another fairytale has
ended and a new era of martyrdom has begun?

am I strong enough to face yet another disappointment
or would I finally cower and forever hide
in the shadows of concealment?


MOOD:
reflective
SONG:
teardrops on my guitar

i wanna cry...

i wrote this poem a long time ago
it was one of the poems that I was really
proud of
I labored long and hard just to finish
that poem
and just the other night
after reading it again
after a such a long time
I put the finishing touches to it

and now
when I went looking for it
I found out my mom
threw it away
coz she thought it was trash
and why?
because I wrote it in a 1/4 piece of
paper
that due to age
has turned yellow
and looked a lot like scratch paper

i really just want to cry..
waahhhh

Un siglo sin ti

Probably one of the sweetest and yet saddest song
in the world...

Un Siglo Sin Ti
by Chayanne

Mil y un historias me he inventado para estar aqui
aqui a tu lado, y no te das cuenta que
yo no encuentro ya que hacer
se que piensas que no he sido sincero
se que piensas que ya no tengo remedio
pero quien me iba a decir
que sin ti no se vivir

Y ahora que no estas aqui
me doy cuenta cuanta falta me haces

CORO
Si te he fallado
te pido perdon de la unica forma que se
abriendo las puertas de mi corazon
para cuando decidas volver
porque nunca habra nadie que pueda llenar
el vacio que dejaste en mi
has cambiado mi vida
me has hecho crecer, es que no soy el mismo de ayer
un dia es un siglo sin ti

Mil y un historias me he inventado
para demostrarte que he cambiado
ya lo que paso paso
rescatemos lo que nos unio
que todos aprendemos de nuestros errores
solo yo te pido que ahora me perdones
pero quien me iba a decir
que dificil es vivir

Y ahora que no estas aqui
me doy cuenta cuanta falta me haces

Si te he fallado
te pido perdon de la unica forma que se
abriendo las puertas de mi corazon
para cuando decidas volver
porque nunca habra nadie que pueda llenar
el vacio que dejaste en mi
has cambiado mi vida
me has hecho crecer, es que no soy el mismo de ayer
un dia es un siglo sin ti

Porque nunca habra nadie que pueda llenar
el vacio que dejaste en mi
has cambiado mi vida
me has hecho crecer, es que no soy el mismo de ayer

Cuanta falta me haces...

Si te he fallado
te pido perdon de la unica forma que se
abriendo las puertas de mi corazon
para cuando decidas volver
porque nunca habra nadie que pueda llenar
el vacio que dejaste en mi
has cambiado mi vida
me has hecho crecer, es que no soy el mismo de ayer
un dia es un siglo sin ti (bis)

Obsession...heartbreaker...Pessimist

In life when you cannot anymore
disassociate yourself with a certainty
or even with a remote idea of
certainty then you can be rest assured
that the proper diagnosis for you
is that you are obsessed.

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I never pictured myself as a heartbreaker.
I reasoned that since I have been hurt
before I certainly would not do that to other
people. That reasoning is the ideal of course
but definitely not the reality. That reasoning
is also flawed because I did not take into
consideration the circumstances. I had forgotten
that no matter what decision I choose to do
there would always be consequences and people
are still bound to get hurt.
I cannot believe that within a span of one month
I managed to break two hearts and made two people
cry. It is a crime worthy of heavy punishment.

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They said that between the two of us He would be the
one who is bound to get hurt more if ever things don't
go the way it was supposed to go
but I totally disagree.
The greatest mistake in this analysis is that they
assumed that I wasn't as attached to him as he was to me.
They didn't know that I had labored for so long trying
to distance myself from him and when I thought
I finally succeeded he just waltzed back in my life
with a flourish and I find myself still attached if not more
attached to him than ever.
I get hurt when I learn that he talks to her for more than
two hours and gets to share
her life with her rather than with me.
I get pissed when you all believe me to be made out of stone.
I feel so thoroughly disappointed whenever she can make
him smile and in comparison the only thing that I seem to do
was make him sad if not cry.
I shiver everytime he touches me.
I felt like I could melt when he wraps his arms around me.
And I think that I could go on till forever just holding
his hand.
So there tell me now that I am not attached to him...
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People think they know me but...
They didn't know that I actually believe in magic and
that I also hope for fairytale endings.
That I can take care of myself but I also need someone
who would take care of me
That all I ever really wanted was to be assured
that I am indeed the one and not just someone
who seems right at the moment
That I am scared whenever I see them together
That I am someone who values friendship over love
and when it comes down to choosing between the two
I would always choose friendship
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QUESTION:
What made you stop believing in fairytales?
And why is it that you would not let yourself fall
in love or be loved again?

ANSWER:
Because I'm a PESSIMIST

The Other Side

030308
“All of my regrets will wash away somehow but I cannot forget the way I feel right now.”
-Little Wonders
So this is how it feels like to be on the other side.
And all I can say is that this side, DEFINITELY SUCKS.
I’ve been on the other side too many times and that part I knew totally hurts but what I really didn’t realize is that this side could also hurt. And so as tears continue to fall down my cheeks, I go to sleep thinking about the things I did and praying that forgiveness may one day come. I knew where all the bitterness came from and I understand that I was wrong. I knew I deserve what I am getting. Thus said, I just wanted to say I’M REALLY SORRY AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

*I hope you can still read this..

STEEP
by Nina

Softly, gently, I will let you down
Cause I don't love you in the same way NOW
I can hold you but NOT WITH LOVER'S ARMS
Cause you are more of a brother to me now
And I can lie next to you, but I CAN'T LIE TO YOU

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep,
for me it's getting
Steep

I loved you for exactly who you are,
And I'd say you've come the nearest yet by far,

And I can lie next to you, but I can't lie to you

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep, for me it's getting

Steeper and in the dark that's where I want to be
Deeper, I'm going somewhere you won't want to see...

So walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain,
For you the future's easy, so don't weep
Yes I will watch you,
Walk into the sun and watch me
Run into the rain drops
For you the future's easy, so don't weep
For me it's getting
Steep.

accident-prone

how did my day went?
-went to school early only to find out group meeting
was canceled

-spent time with friends but was not able
to do or accomplish anything

-went to Moro Lorenzo to play badminton
but unfortunately after 10 mins into playing time
got BADLY injured

-pretended that I can walk and play with an
injured ankle for 2 hrs

-laughed with friends
and here are some quotable quotes to remind me how
funny my friends' comments can be

while looking at moro lorenzo statue
J*N: May something wrong sa legs niya.Parang
mas malaki ung isa.
TRIC*E: Baka na-injure siya
J*N: at parang mukhang intestine ung knees niya

-succumbed to fact that yes I was wrong to pretend
that I can walk and limped all the way from the field
to the shower room

-ate mcflurry and fries then exchange funny notes with
Jen while ogling cute high-school boys

-waited for a taxi that would agree to take us to Makati
and nearly injured my other foot

-went home and immediately told my parents about my injury
because when I
looked at my injured foot, it was swollen and badly bruised
and I can barely limp

-as my parents kept a relentless litany of sermons I wrapped
my injured foot and prayed to God that I can walk properly
by Monday (which is very unlikely but I think I am entitled
to hope)

-received a very bitter text message

-wrote my very bad day here